“I’ve heard it said That people come into our lives for a reason Bringing something we must learn And we are led To those who help us most to grow If we let them And we help them in return Well, I don’t know if I believe that’s true But I know I’m who I am today Because I knew you…
– Wicked, For Good
Everyone has that one friend that no matter how long you go with out seeing them you can instantly connect with them the minute you are together again. Someone who accepts all your faults and encourages all the good things in you. Someone who inspires you. Your partner in crime. I just got to spend a long weekend with mine.
When we got relocated to Michigan my biggest fear was that I would loose myself. I would move away from my job, the people who inspired me, and I would loose that spark inside of me that pushed myself to be better.
I was fortunate enough to find a job right out of school that embodied everything I was, creating things and solving problems. At that job there were a handful of people who were like me, with the same ideas and wants, and the desire to create. My relationship with my partner in crime formed there over 6 years. We would come into work almost every morning with new ideas to share. One idea would lead to another and then another until we were creating fantastic worlds full of costumes and props. It was never an attempt to one up each other but instead every time one of us thought of something the other would build on it, or maybe head off in a related yet unrelated direction.
When we moved I lost all the people who pushed me creatively. It’s like cutting off your hands and having your eyes poked out. I moved and found myself in a group of people who delivered dirty looks for my crazy dyed hair and tattoos and after feeling like I had a real family I found myself in a foster home where I really didn’t fit in. It can be really over whelming when you feel like you can’t be yourself.
Slowly I’ll find my way back. I started finding people who are more like me and more accepting of who I am. Roller Derby helps with that.
I cherish the time I get with my partner in crime. Even if it’s just fabric shopping, or watching a movie that we’ve both seen a hundred times while we drink and bitch. She’s like therapy for me. She helped make me who I am today. I hope she knows how inspirational she is to everyone she meets. Thanx girl, I better get to work on all those projects we talked about. First up- Steampunk purse! ❤ you!